Forebearance
Well-Known Member
Dear Friends,
This summer I was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. It has been devastating.
I can't help but wonder if my having COVID19 acutely 12 times and Long COVID for a year and 3 months may have weakened my immune system in some way. Cancer does not run in my family at all.
My Long COVID symptoms finally resolved when I moved out of my apartment. It had developed a mold problem. So I was homeless and looking for a new place to live when this diagnosis happened. IIf you know me you know I am an extreme mold avoider, so that makes finding a living place challenging. I have been forced to stay in a series of hotels that bother my environmental sensitivities, because I am out of hotels that agree with me in my hometown.
First the doctors wanted me to do chemo. That didn't go very well. It made me extremely sick. The amount of chemo I could tolerate was so small that the doctor felt it wouldn't do anything to shrink the tumor. I guess it just annoyed the tumor a little bit.
Next they sent me to radiation therapy. It also makes me very sick. I have only been sleeping 2-4 hours a night on most nights, because of the hotels bothering me. I feel like my life has turned into a nightmare.
But I finally found an apartment that might work, and I am going to move in next week. I am also going to see a local alternative doctor and try to get some mistletoe shots. They supposedly improve a patient's quality of life and don't conflict with any of the conventional treatments. Maybe things will start getting better.
At this point, I still don't know if I will live or die. It is a horrible situation to be in. I really miss the days when I only had ME/CFS.
I really hope this doesn't happen to anyone else.
This summer I was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. It has been devastating.
I can't help but wonder if my having COVID19 acutely 12 times and Long COVID for a year and 3 months may have weakened my immune system in some way. Cancer does not run in my family at all.
My Long COVID symptoms finally resolved when I moved out of my apartment. It had developed a mold problem. So I was homeless and looking for a new place to live when this diagnosis happened. IIf you know me you know I am an extreme mold avoider, so that makes finding a living place challenging. I have been forced to stay in a series of hotels that bother my environmental sensitivities, because I am out of hotels that agree with me in my hometown.
First the doctors wanted me to do chemo. That didn't go very well. It made me extremely sick. The amount of chemo I could tolerate was so small that the doctor felt it wouldn't do anything to shrink the tumor. I guess it just annoyed the tumor a little bit.
Next they sent me to radiation therapy. It also makes me very sick. I have only been sleeping 2-4 hours a night on most nights, because of the hotels bothering me. I feel like my life has turned into a nightmare.
But I finally found an apartment that might work, and I am going to move in next week. I am also going to see a local alternative doctor and try to get some mistletoe shots. They supposedly improve a patient's quality of life and don't conflict with any of the conventional treatments. Maybe things will start getting better.
At this point, I still don't know if I will live or die. It is a horrible situation to be in. I really miss the days when I only had ME/CFS.
I really hope this doesn't happen to anyone else.