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Betrayal.
After all these years I have realised that this has been a life theme throughout.
Experiences of betrayal by Doctors misrepresenting, misdiagnosing, conning the M.E. community with the fraudulent PACE trial. Whilst most of us were open initially to psychological therapies, we reported back that these caused harm and were betrayed and portrayed offensively for it.
Betrayal by Advocate and Psychologist James Coyne. Who still has not even bothered to apologise for his violent outburst and attack on sick M.E. Advocates and every single patient with M.E. A further slight to himself on his own character. It takes a real man to apologise for causing suffering to disabled groups.
Those in my life, especially people who I have genuinely helped the most, wanting nothing in return, have betrayed me the most.
There is no point in trusting any individual because they are so flakey, unreliable, undisciplined. It doesn't stop me giving with discernment but not ego giving - to fluff up the ego for praise, for thanks, to feel better about myself as a bargaining chip, to be thought well of etc.
Would you really go and sit in with the crazy lions in a zoo? Sending out those "loving vibes and positivity" in the trust that you won't be mauled?
I have felt frustrated because M.E. does make for unreliability in every aspect. But this is not who I am.
I think it could be argued that the disease M.E. has some seriously bad karma. I do not mean the disease itself, I mean all the stigma and discrimination that comes with it.
Any techniques to heal this?
After all these years I have realised that this has been a life theme throughout.
Experiences of betrayal by Doctors misrepresenting, misdiagnosing, conning the M.E. community with the fraudulent PACE trial. Whilst most of us were open initially to psychological therapies, we reported back that these caused harm and were betrayed and portrayed offensively for it.
Betrayal by Advocate and Psychologist James Coyne. Who still has not even bothered to apologise for his violent outburst and attack on sick M.E. Advocates and every single patient with M.E. A further slight to himself on his own character. It takes a real man to apologise for causing suffering to disabled groups.
Those in my life, especially people who I have genuinely helped the most, wanting nothing in return, have betrayed me the most.
There is no point in trusting any individual because they are so flakey, unreliable, undisciplined. It doesn't stop me giving with discernment but not ego giving - to fluff up the ego for praise, for thanks, to feel better about myself as a bargaining chip, to be thought well of etc.
Would you really go and sit in with the crazy lions in a zoo? Sending out those "loving vibes and positivity" in the trust that you won't be mauled?
I have felt frustrated because M.E. does make for unreliability in every aspect. But this is not who I am.
I think it could be argued that the disease M.E. has some seriously bad karma. I do not mean the disease itself, I mean all the stigma and discrimination that comes with it.
Any techniques to heal this?