Since there was no post exertion malaise, I felt so comfortable all the time when I stopped yoga. I reached the physical capability to do yoga 4 hours straight. I did not even know the terms PEM and allodynia back then. So I interpreted no yoag means 'no free radical generation after physical activity' and 'no damage to the muscular and nervous system', so very good sleep. At the same time, based on the natural intelligence principle I gave very high doses multi-vitamin. In my study I understood that any amount of natural (not synthetic) multi-vitamin intake is good as our body would take what is required and it would discharge the rest.
For example normal dose of noni juice is 30 ml per day. I used to take 150 to 200 ml per day. I used to go by my body felling. I am sure if I have that extra $100 to $200 every month for my good diet and also some tips from those who understands the condition, I would have been well by now. On the other hand, due to delayed recovery from this debilitating disorder, I cold learn to be more grounded, the desire to help many became stronger, humbleness and most importantly enjoy my moment despite the adversity. A whole new life enhancing personality.
Plus, around the same time I started to fast weekly one day. That initial start was based on certain religious ritual recommended by my priest in India. I told him that I had acidity issue, I could not bare hungry, etc......... He said, just do it on every Tuesday, no issue, God would take care. Then I thought let me test myself if I could stay without eating for about 24 hours (from Monday dinner to Tuesday dinner). I did not believe in the miracle as my priest told me. First few weeks I was like - I must eat now, else I might have to call emergency. After I fasted for 10 weeks in a row in 2013 I started to feel more energetic and my pains started to come down by the evening of every Tuesday. I could feel the tickling inside leg muscles intensely and across my body less intensely - a sense of relief and becoming well. To my own surprise and contrary to my prior experience and popular belief when I delay my timely food intake - no acidity, started to feel hungry healthily, increased presence of mind, overall energy and increased productivity. Then I studied the advantages of fasting. I re-started few weeks ago after few months gap when I had bowl movement issues. With one day fasting, it was cleared. In 4 weeks of restart my bowl movement became regular. As I type this today I experience new level of ease in my body.
In the process I built more muscle strength, and add overall physical energy through noni juice and protein intake. As I alter my own experience to life enhancing feelings - positive, fun and loving the energy in the body is sustaining and remaining for longer time. Now I eat half as I used to eat, and still have several times of energy that I ever had. I interpret this as my body is absorbing nutrition well as intestines were cleansed due to fasting and noni juice. When I experience intense fear or guilt I observed my energy levels gone down and fatigue appeared instantly.
Before fasting and with the nutrition regime even if I took rest for weeks, not much help. After fasting with good nutrition I started to feel better every time I take rest, even for few minutes. People around me started to acknowledge me - Hari, you are looking healthier day by day, relaxed and refreshed. Those who see me after a year or two, even surprised.
I tell everyone that I am happy with a smile.
One more aspect that added to my recovery
: emotional well being. After I read somewhere we have three types of recovery: 1. No recovery 2. Partial recovery 3. Complete Recovery. I thought what should I do if I want to be the 3rd type.
I studied about those who recovered from cancer and other devastating physical disorders, the companies that came back, and individuals who came back in life after major setbacks (after major accident and major loss in business). I found one common trait or culture - they all have life enhancing thoughts and respective logical conclusion and the process to arrive at that conclusion along with corresponding life enhancing experiences and feelings.
At the same I also studied the famous people whose life ended in tragedy or who lost completely by the end of their life - they were living with certain negative feelings and experiences like guilt, shame, I am not good enough, etc.
I concluded it as over all personality that played role either way.
With the help of Landmark Education, and intense study of various texts, books I started to examine my own thoughts and corresponding feelings and experiences. By 2013 as far as I remember during my entire life I only had two feelings - fear and guilt combined with jealous. I could also see how I built those feelings and conclusions. I do not remember my childhood feelings.
Understanding the following three points a played good role in this process:
1. Brain can send corresponding signal to physically act or to create a feeling only if there is existing memory or ability to recall that aspect at that given moment
2. Existing memory in the body organs constantly trigger corresponding feelings and experiences.
3. Emotional stress creates toxins (or free radicals) in the body and damage the same
It took me lot of effort to transform my thoughts, logical conclusions, experiences and feelings from: doubt, sense of 'I not good enough', sense of I am not supported', sense of 'I am helpless' etc TO
where I make a choice after consideration instead of doubt, feel supported, accepted, sense of 'I am good and lovable', I can love, I can do anything. I trained brain through an exercise from Landmark Education to create corresponding life enhancing experience and feelings (will share more on this in some other post).
Meaning, when look at my wife, I started to think how beautiful she is and experience the same with a pause in my thoughts, rather how inefficiently she works in the kitchen or how pathetic her communication with me is. Like wise I started to look at every one and every situation under a different light. At the same time I am present to the other side of the situation, but do not highlight unless it is required. Earlier I used to highlight the negative side, but did not even get present to the beauty and best of the life most of the times. This approach helped at my home - to conclude every argument with a joke and to relish every moment with all those imperfections. In the past several months except one log important discussion, every argument ended in one to two minutes, and with a laugh.
During my initial days of transformation I just gained positive thinking (early 2000s), that did not work for several years as corresponding experiences were still - I was not good enough, people would not support me, deep sorrow, grief, intense internal anger, fear, etc.
Also the study and understanding of impact of our emotions in our body encouraged me to start working on life enhancing fundamental way of thinking, feeling and experiencing life. I realized that our emotions are stored in our body in a corresponding organ. Thus only corresponding thoughts, feelings and experiences trigger. As per Ayurveda when we eat good food and take good rest, body heals itself. As required the existing and old memories would be revisited and healed so that the disorder never returns (this is layman way of presenting).
I believe the combination of diet, personality transformation and determination that I should be healthy, travel across the globe with my family, and I must take care of my family helped me to recover.
Most importantly before I take any dietary supplement, I studied the history of the company, why the fonder started the company, who and what life experiences helped her to develop the formula. This gave me the confidence that the founder is passionate about the end usage of her products and the corresponding results each and every individual may produce rather than money alone.
I forgot to include my fasting in my initial post. Thanks for asking me this question.
Please keep on asking me questions, so that I will respond accordingly. As the process is very long, for me it is not easy to present everything in one go. Plus as I respond I am recalling certain things I did or the symptoms I used to have.
Many things played a role for my emotional well being. I would like to share one video that played good role to help me accept my wife the way she is and the way she is not and with her own beautiful imperfections. Also my life. I watched this video several times over the years.
https://dl.dropboxusercontent.com/u/5085259/Think Family.Sg - Indian Woman talking about those imperfetions that make us perfect.mov